Wednesday, December 22, 2004
Some thing wrong
It's eight o'clock in the morning , I know I should be at school, but the bridges are closed and there is a curfew .
At about 6:45AM, we heard plenty of bullets and explosions, I was checking my information because I have a history examination. My sister called us and said, please don't go to school. By then, we didn't know that the bridges are closed. But when we know we decided not to go to school and we began to call our friends and relatives and tell them not to go out from school or work.
So, I will not go to school, I will not take a history exam, huh.
Yesterday, I was unlucky in my examination *ooof* My marks are not good like the years before, any way I did my best and I understand the lesson and that's enough like my father said" I should not care if I have a bad mark when I understand the lesson"
I read this poem and want you to read it
When I Say...I am a Muslim
When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I'm not shouting " down with Christians and Jews."
I am whispering "I seek peace,"
and Islam is the path that I choose.
When I say. . . I am a Muslim,
I speak of this with pride.
And confess that sometimes I stumble,
and need Allah to be my guide.
When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I know this makes me strong.
And in those times when I am weak,
I pray to Allah for strength to carry on.
When I say. . . I am a Muslim,
I'm not boasting of success.
I'm acknowledging that Allah has rescued me,
and I cannot ever repay the debt.
When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are indeed visible,
but Allah forgives because his followers are worth it.
When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
it does not mean I will never feel pain.
I still have my share of heartaches,
which is why I invoke Allah's name.
When I say. . .I am a Muslim,
I do not wish to judge.
I have no such authority
My duty is to submit to Allah's all-encompassing love.
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Long days
Now I am in the home but I wrote this word in the school and now I type it, I know you must wonder why I write it in the school before typing it ? coz I don't have time to write in the blog till the week end.
I am so sad these day coz I don't get well in my examination, because we have 40 minute to answer about 4 question and they are long hard questions. But in the other side I was completely understand the lesson but I don't know what happened to me in the exam, I can't believe that was me who write this wrong wrong answer, and in the history examination I write the question rung so as my answers was wrong, I feel I am a fool, but in fact I am clever, I feel some times that I am clever more than the girls in my class but that is not my feeling after an exam because I all ways did a fool mistake but that is not change the situation " I am special" right? Tell me how many girls in this word her name is hnk? No body? See? There is no girls her name is hnk, and I am a girl, So that mean my name is not hnk.
about my friend's news: yesterday my friends" let's call her Mary" was crying when she reach the school, and I asked her what happened and she said she saw a died man in front of the door of her house and she was the one who opened the door and she was the first one saw him, and she began to shout so as her uncle came and covered him ... My other friend tell her" that's ok, you saw a died man in front of your house but I saw a died man without head , and another man only have a feet" , I know that's scare but it is real, and the more scared that I heard in the news that they founded 14 died men in Mosul " I don't know if the man that's Mary saw him was one of them, but it is still scare" .
yesterday at about 4:30 we heared a loud sound of boom near from our house, So the tank of the American came around the neighbor and one of them stop in front of our house, We called my father in Mobile and tell him not to come to home now coz they shot all cars cross them, my father used another road to come to home , he could reach the house behind our house but he could reach our house as I tell you, so he cross the wall using a steer and reach a home safe finally .
Thursday, December 09, 2004
I was so busy in the examination this week did well on them but not like I should did.my sadness increase day after day. I didn't have enough time to sleep more than 7 or 6 hours every day, and I don't have a good time when I sleep because my nightmares.
But in the other side I felt that I was sleep all my life and now I waked up and opened my eyes to this world abeutiful word!! Impossible to live in.
I know I should do something to my country but I don't know what it is and how can I do it alone without any help FROM IRAQI PEOPLE, there is saying" you can't clap using one hand. And that's right ... So that let me wonder,what should I do?
My friend was so upset last days because there were plenty of explosion near from her house , and the widows of her house broken, and when she stopped talking about that, another girl from my friend reach the class and started talking about what happened near from her house and she said that the Americans destroyed the mosque in her neighborhood. They were both sad.
about the exam I had 3 examination today. When we was wrote our answers in the exam,We heared a big Bomb. and because there is plenty of bomb and bullets when we were in the school, the master of our school tell us that we shall be at school from 8 o'clock in the morning , and we shall back home at 12:15
I don't want you to share my feeling this week because I don't feel good.so I will stop now.
so bye bye
hnky :)
PC: are you happy now"jeff"?