Sunday, November 27, 2005

I survived till this moment

Boom...
Yes, I am a live.
I am writing,In case you thought you will not have to read my blog anymore, not hear about my un normal life and not be aware of the bad, terrible and un acceptable situation. I am back

well, Our life is like a ball And you are the player that led the ball into the way you chose.
last 30 days I was feeling pessimistic,bad, angry and afraid. there are somethings around me that might make me a braver day after day. explosions and bombing cars that I used to and not be afraid of them anymore.
But there are another things I am afraid of, somethings you don't know.

Today I am better than any day before I am laughing and smiling for the sillier things. I get my mark in french examination and I get 42-60 *bad mark* but when I saw my mark I began to laugh. he he
In usuall life If I get 90 I cry. But I think there's something in the air today.
there are always something in the air like hydrogen, nitrogen but In Iraq there are also sadnogen and crynogen and many many gases.
Ok I know I am silly today, I always said words bigger than me. but I am really feeling bad this month, I just want to shout at loud as I can, I want to smash the ball I am in And I want to stop writing this post.
But....
I said that I will write a post before I lost my mind.
I did it..
successfully...
without calling the tear into my face...
And I spent half an hour writing this podst but the electrisity go to it's home and I waited for a while till the generator turn on so I continued writing the post.
what a huge post I wrote.

Il faut prendre une risque


Salam
hnk

53 comments:

Mad Canuck said...

Hey HNK,

I'm glad to see you writing again, I missed hearing from you.

I'm really glad you and your family had a chance to visit your relatives in Baghdad for Eid, it must have been a welcome break for you, and I hope you had a good time.

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Thank you for posting, hnk, even though you didn't want to. I check your blog every day and I was really starting to worry about you :)

David said...

Dear Hnk,

I am glad there was a bit of laughogen in the air today to make you smile. :) I hope that you can keep your ball rolling toward whatever goal you would like to reach! Remember that other people care about you. Please write again soon. Take care.

haffee said...

Assalamu alikum hnk. How are you.
Min zaman you didnt post. You had me worried about you. Kilah bssabab il ashya ili ashoofha on the tv and i though that something bad must have happened to you. Ilhamdulilah you are alright.

Your reaction towards your french marks reminded me of once when I cried once when i got 19/20 in my arabic class but laughed when i got 8/20 in math.


by the way ,was the french sentence you posted say "He did something risky"?

ta soeur en Islam

Libby said...

Dear hnk,

I'd like to laugh with you when you're feeling happy or silly.
I'd like to hold your hand when you feel sad or angry or afraid.

But all I can do is read your blog and tell you I look forward to every post you write. Thanks.

sur said...

so glad you are writting again. I also check your blog every day.
Life will get better, you are young and there is lots more good comming for you.

red one said...

Hello Hnk - it's very nice to see you back again. I am sorry you have had a month of breathing sadnogen. That is coming from the un-normal life, I think...

Il faut prendre une risque Yes, that is true - c'est vrai, n'est-ce pas?

But you are brave, Hnk - well done for posting and putting the comments back on. Keep your chin up!

and take care,
red

Jan said...

Hnk, you got many friends

Anonymous said...

HNK I'm glad to see you back. I was starting to worry about you. I also check your blog everyday. I'm sure that everything in your life seems like it's turned upside down but we all hope that it will get better for you soon.Just remember that many people around the world care for you and consider you a part of our lives. Try to keep posting, it may help to just get it all out.

Jack Bennett said...

I was worried your last post would really be your LAST post, HNK. Its good to see you posting again. I know you must be just as busy with exams as Najma is but I must say I agree with Jan, you have many friends who read your blog and look forward to your thoughts. Keep safe.

alice said...

Me too...I look for your posts everyday and was so happy to see that you were writing again!

Anonymous said...

oooh habibati, shukran. reading your blog getting a sense of your prodigious loving spirit warms my heart, but at the same time it causes me great sadness--knowing that my country's ruinous policies have circumscribed your ability to live a happy, secure, prosperous existence. those suffering the greatest deserve to become the happiest...and they will. --- your sister in amreeka A.

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