Tuesday, September 19, 2006

New day has come

Salaam all,
There is no argument that I had fun in Syria and this journey helped me really to re-draw a smile in my face,But it also make me feel that the 17 years I lived all go in vain.
honestly, When I raech syria's area I told Najma " It's OK, It's only seventeen years!"
Yes, we can say this: it's only seventeen years. But hey!! it's take all my life :(
there were so many questions dancing and moving in circle and making a noisy in my mind.
what I was doing in this 17 years ? yeah yeaee, how could I forget this, I was studying history which I realised that it contains so many lies and Little truths. well, I don't say I didn't do anything but the things I did are not helpful.
Anyway, I woke up from my last life and maybe I am going to somewhere.
So, I came from Syria carrying hopes and dreams of futures.
but When we became finally in home. There was a car preparing itself to suicide and it did exploded near from our house. we didn't lose any of our Windows but some neighbors did.
well, After another bombs car and after the daily Small explosion and bullets, I still carrying some hopes that I will find the hope someday.
Another day started when I heard that one of our relatives had been killed so I triedto forget this as usual and I think I succeed in this because I didn't talk about that since the son rays falls. I really had a very bad nightmare last few days but today I didn't see anything when I was asleep. Nothing is better than nightmare certainly.
There is a hot news, Our telephone repaired this morning. It was not working since the nine of January ( so long) I even forget how to use the telephone :) but after while I called my grandma and when she answered me I changed my tone voice automatically to a child voice. I hardly prevent my tears. I really really missed my grandparent and I can't wait to see them again.

My school will start tomorrow and here we go to our last year in the high school.
collage, I can't wait to see you...
keep in touch


Anonymous said...

It must be very hard to keep up good thoughts with all that is going on in your part of the world.
I am happy that you are able to have some happy thoughts and feel good about the future. It is good that your phone works and you were able to talk to your grandmother. :)

Flower^Angel said...

Welcome back

H.N.K said...

Thank you both for your comments..
keep in touck

Um Haleema said...

I.m so glad to hear that you had a good time on vacation.

I'm curious about what history you learned that you have now discovered to be lies. Did your parents know that this history you were learning was lies?

Anonymous said...

this is quite something

Chavez Says U.S. Empire Will Soon Fall, Calls Bush 'Devil'

Anonymous said...

I think most history is lies. It is all wrote in the view of who ever is in power. Many of the things I was taught in school I later found was not the truth. Most of us wear blinders like a horse and can only see what is in front of us. Me miss so much of what is really going on.

David said...

Hnk, I am sorry to be late to comment. I meant to comment a few days ago, but am only now getting back to you. I am glad for you that the trip to Syria gave you some happiness. It is good news that your telephone is repaired! I am sure that your grandma was very happy to talk to you too! :) I hope you can see your grandparents soon. My last grandparent passed away last year. I miss her very much. Actually, I miss all of my grandparents. I suppose that I am lucky that they all lived a long time and so I got to know all four of them pretty well. Good luck starting the new year of school! Also, Happy Ramadan to you and your family.

don said...

I like your pictures too. You are in my thoughts.

Libby said...

Hi Hnk

That is big news. Aya will want to get on the phone all the time but when you really what her to talk, she won't. ;)
Starting your LAST year of high school. WOW.
I hope you and your family have a safe Ramadan.