Friday, December 10, 2010

Just to say Hi..

She is always tired, Always busy and always taking exams….

Yes, she is always complaining, always crying and always not satisfied!

She is always fighting and always dreaming and always feels the need to write!!!
Unfortunately, this she is always me!

I finished my midcourse examinations before a couple of days and that explains my hyperactivity in refreshing this blog and may explain this few hallucination’s lines!!

I am totally occupied by this fantastic pharmacy college I am attending. Sometimes I reach the point of being unable to decide which thing gave me more worries, the war or the pharmacy college?

But since my study in this college will take 5 years of my life and the war seems to leave me with none, I can tell that my life is of war limiting steps!!

After all, being engage to one of my collegue makes college a more welcome place to go.

I am giving my best in studying and I pray to have marks that suite my ambitious spirit this year inshallah.

Friday, August 20, 2010

Just talking..!!

Ooops, another dozen of weeks without writing!
I know this (the absence from blog) became one of my habit but let's look to the bright side of this case;

* I am writing here since 2004 (I am 6 years old blogger!!).
For this occasion; I need a promotion!! Otherwise my faithfulness to the blogosphere will lose its continuation!!

* my evolution through this 6 years from a teenager girl who carry the world problems on her shoulder to mature girl who consider listening to the news " OUT OF MIND " behavior !!

Well, my absence is related to many causes, one of them is that after taking such a big decision in my life (the engagement decision) I decided to go along with my laziness and enjoy my decision result!!!

The other cause is related to being busy with my summer training in hospital.
I did extra days training not because of my will, and not because I am enjoying the illness smell, the sorrowful faces of leukemic children and not even because I am gaining worthy information (because I don't)..... It's all because:

when Allah gave the humanity kindness in their acts, one of the later refuse this gift!!
Thanks Dr. XXXX for making my world unhappier and unbeautiful place.
And if we were not in this holly month "Ramadan" I was going to go along talking about this, but now I will swallow my anger, hatred and Aversion and change the subject!!

Well, dear brain,
sorry for my nine hundred ninety nine thoughts that have been visiting you these days!!

Dear reader,
relax, I won't write about the 999 thoughts :)

Dear stomach,
be patient, it only 4 hours left till the iftar

Dear CNV,
find me a plan to finish my work's schedual for this month.

Dear heart,
be patient, live life and have Faith...

Thursday, July 22, 2010

♥♥ engaged !!! ♥♥

I didn’t know if he was my dream or I was his... but now I have faith that, we are each others destiney.
I surprised myself this month in doing this big decision in my life especially after a year that was from the hardest years I've lived ..
I, the one who have a hesitated personality, the one who spends hours thinking when I want to choose things as simple as shoes!!l! I found myself able to give an answer to his question with no hesitation but maybe with just small fears.
After each time I talk to him, I become more confident to walk in this road till the end. He is my power supplier and the one who is pushing me forward.There is a sense inside me that keeps telling me that I found him, but well, in fact, he found me first

The power of true love can make miracles, and the true love is an apportunity I was given...
So, I said yes:
I am ready to spend my lifetime with you
I said yes,
For you to be my hero
I said yes,
I will wear this ring forever
And I said yes,
Here is my heart, you can take it and SAFELY keep it ♥♥♥

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Sunday, July 04, 2010

happily ever after !!

I always loved frogs.

During my early childhood, It was my habit to kill frogs in our garden using my shoes, I know it was not fun,but it was my way to reflect my evilish childhood personallity *I guess* by treading frogs one after the other

Many years later, and after I entered the pharmacy college, I learned that frog are animal being and it's the best creature we can use in physiology lab. to experience sience.
I cut out their head by scissors, and I even dissected their body, I saw their smallest anatomical parts, and I became familiar with their smell and the touch of their skin!!!

What is the interest of frogs??

Today, a microscopic frog creeped it's way into our house.

-ثم ماذا ؟؟

Sometimes, you wished that fairy tales are real stories. you wished that by kissing this frog, you'll live the happily ever after !!

Sometimes, things goes unexpectedly to be more complicated, it's not that complicated that it can't be solved, but it's complicated enough to envy the heroic princess from story for being given the easier way to get her prince and to live the happily ever after.

well, today was one of these times .

10th of July
Happy birthday
to You

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

I am back ..

Finally and after a very hard studying year, I finished my exams!!

Yes, I finish my third stage in Pharmacy College.

Yes, I won't live the nightmare of having block memory information during the exam anymore! * At least for the next 3 months*

Yes, I won't lie on the floor, begging Allah for miracle to end this day and I am entirely intact!

Yes, I will sleep as much as I want without paying attention to my stupid, annoying, and creepy clock alarm!

Yes, I will watch the TV, and I will go for shopping and I will enjoy my holiday as much as I could.

Yes, I will write here more often, and yes….

-Yes what??


Congrats, congrats, many congrats to me!!!

P.S: I don't have any inspiration to write a post. I am little tired right now, so I just write this little few words to keep my promise in writing post soooooon.

Thursday, June 03, 2010

It's the third of june and I am 21 ^__^

Hello followers,

*I had a pharmacology exam in the day of my birthday, and I did extremely bad in it!!!
Except that,I had nice day with the family and I received nice and precious watch from my parents beside many speciall gifts from my dearest friends.

* I receive nearly 28 SMS greeting messages and many call from friends and relatives. I appreciate that they remember me inspite of the examinations panic.

But in the other hand:

I think no matter how much you mean to other, they might still forget your birthday and disappoint your expectations !!!!!

*I will have pharmaceutical examination next monday, and inspite the fact that I will finish this horrble exam days, but This make me more closer from being alone whith no sister and that's exactly what I meant in last post in not being ready for holiday ( I am not ready to say good bye to my sister).

P.S: thanks in advance for any greetings I will get from my blog followers.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Think randomly, talk randomly

Hello readers,I was absence for two month !! well during this:

I took my Mid-Course examination and I did well in most of them.
the less mark I got was in Pharmaceutical (56/100), which is a subject I like, and I don't really think that I have a problem with it, but it seems that it has one with me, I always get low mark in this subject !! Never know where the defect is!!

Well, to be more precise; I became an aunt just a day before my exam.
It's a girl, and we named her "Marwa" and she is so pretty.

My sister and her children came and stayed in our house for 2 week since my brother in law was in India. They were a big source of noisiness, but in the other hand, they made the days of exams less depress for me.

I love my nieces and nephews so much, and it's the aunt's nature to show her love, but the problem I faced with that is my nephew "Ayman" 4 years old.
He went to my mother and said: “when I'll grow up, will you let me marry aunt Hadia??"

That's funny; I never thought in his age, one will do plans for future, especially that kind of plans!

I really didn't know how to deal with him after that, his mother tried to explain the issue to him and how wrong is it to marry me. she was more likely following up my behavior and telling me not to be kind with him, not hugging him, and not play with his feeling, !!! Ok, Ok

that was so easy after my parents left to Amman for 10 days and my sister and her followers (children) stayed with us.

At that time, I was not taking exams and I felt responsible of this house and so I was more like recording machine, yielding at the children all the time (DONT DO THAT!!)

Well, they are not natural children, they are hyperactive monsters.
I cought Anas once attacking Marwa while she was asleep, You should never trust child's innocence.
I make use of my sister residence with us . She helps me in studying pharmacology; she was really doing great in taking care of us and cooking (a horrible food) for us. And she was really more like a super woman. But Ayman was still consist on his opinion that mothers can't be a super hero بطله خارقه because they are mothers( the exact same reason that make me more convince of her being a super woman).

Now I am preparing for Exams: D *As usual*, it’s my final examinations,they will start on the third of June and ended on 21th. I need more than hard studying, need more than luck, need more than prayers.... I need Allah.

I am passing through a difficult circumstances in this critical time. As usual, all the difficulties come as additive to the exams. I really should have adaptation to this !!

I am eager to finish my third year in college, but in the other hand, I am not ready for the holiday.

well it’s complicated ;)

My sister is going to get marry and we are leaving for turkey for few weeks and there might be a life decision to make, I'll talk about that later. ….. Well it’s all about time